22 Oct
My depression i feel is at an all time high. Probably due to my stress level, I work from 6:00 am to 2:30 pm, mind you I wake up at 4:30 am to get ready for work and be out the door by 5:00, to be able to make it to work on time which is a 36 minute commute. I take the freeway so it’s sometimes a real bitch to get from point a to point b. I’m moving next month with my boyfriend, to no where closer to my job but yet it’s 15 minutes for my boyfriend to get to his job. It feels like he has picked a place the best suits all his needs and wants because I’m not picky on finding a place I wanted something I could afford. And yet I know I won’t be able to afford this place with how much I have saved up, plus savings. And don’t make much at my job because I’m hourly. Im constantly bending for everyone but I feel like I’m not getting anything in return. I want to cry, scream, bury myself in a hole and just exist. And even if I express this to him it won’t make a difference it’ll just turn into an argument. Usually we can be super communicating if our issues but he has no choice but to move out by next month and he’ll just say that I didn’t do much to look for a place and yet he told me picking some place to live in the middle of our jobs was best. And yet my commute will now be longer for me and less for him.
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22 Oct
Hey Samantha, it’s sad to read your story. I really feel so sorry😔 However, look in the mirror once again, right into your eyes, and ask yourself: “who can rescue me from this situation?”! That person is right in front of you, in the mirror, looking into your eyes! That’s you and only you darling! That kind little person who bends for everyone else but herself! Just stop being so much kinder to others than yourself. Sometimes you may need to argue back with people and strongly say no to their face! Start loving and protecting yourself! You might not be able to change your boyfriend’s decision about moving this time, but gradually start to say no to smaller things and practise saying no to bigger things later! Don’t mind arguments, try to win them, have enough good reasons and come up with win-win solutions! Make it work
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